First, I thank God for the anonimity from the internet.
But, yeah, I’m 18 and I’m just now struggling with the last stages of puberty, the constant though of sex and stuff like that. I know it’s really late for that, but my mindset stunted me a bit. I just never thought of it as an important thing in life, I still don’t. And for some reason I fear it, it’s like when you’re hungry, but you don’t feel like eating. yeah,
And my mom has been smoking weed in the house, but she won’t fess up. I’d know that smell anywhere, thanks to the high school I went to. I don’t like the idea of her smoking it, but she could at least do it outside. I think I’m either allergic to it or I’m getting some kind of low grade high form it, either way I don’t want it.
I’m also having trouble getting a job, it seems as if no one wants me.
I’ve just been feeling so alone, like everyone is ignoring me, even God. I know he’s not, but it feels like it. My life is just so boring and meaningless right now.
Oh, and I want to get more people to pray for my Brother’s wife’s brother. (what a mouthfull)
He got hit be a train the day after thanksgiving. He’s had a couple of surgeries and lost two thirds of his right leg.

Just be true to your self,
Ignore the distractions and find your inner peace.

Then go and do what you feel is right

God will always be with you… sometimes he is just harder to see.

Sorry about your brother…

God Bless

I just wanted to say … don’t be afraid or scared of anything. Fear can cripple you.

Set your goals. Plan it out and don’t give up.

If what you are doing to find a job isn’t working … don’t give up and approach it a different way.

And remember not to listen and believe the lies. You are worth anyone’s and everyone time. You are lovable and you are never alone.

What is your sister-in-law’s brother’s name?

You are always loved by god and you friends.
Do not be afraid and don’t get scared.

Remeber you are not alone your not worthless you are never alone in my eyes you are worth everything. through gods eyes your are worth the world.

Mabey you don’t want hear how sorry I am about your brothers wife brother but yea I fell very bad i’m really sorry.

May you be graced by the lord.

Don’t worry about puberty or fight it-whatever you feel the need to do will be what it will be, but holding off early on is what makes a lot of real perverts. On the other hand, spare no misery in being the best you can be-take what you want, but take all you can get of it, not just the easy stuff.

Second-nothing wrong with grass. If she’s irresponsible toward you or you can’t dig it, don’t fight that either-just get away from it.

Take the shittiest job you can get-it’ll hurt more than flipping burgers to be a laborer or something, but you’re losing the time anyway, you might as well feel some pain you wouldn’t normally make for yourself.

Finally-God is ignoring you. Whatever there is beyond our direct control (and I’d crap a brick if it were a sapient all-loving anthropomorphic deity) but within our range of effectivity for one or another reason-one thing can be assumed of it-it responds more to deliberate, concerted, objective, and powerful action rather than wishful thinking, passiveness, and subjectivity.

I certainly had a rough time when I was 18-19. Everything seemed so dark and daunting. I agree with Simpleman – Ignore the distractions and find your inner peace. Pray about it. Even though it doesn’t seem like it all the time God is ALWAYS there and is listening. He wants a personal relationship with you and wants to hear from you. -PLUR

The idea of smoking weed is only a bad thing in the eyes of “Babylon”. Some believers in the Rastafarian faith believe it enhances spirituality and creativity and I am telling you from “First Hand Experience” it does. It cant be that bad when alcohol and cigarettes are killing people and brothas are only passing out from a hard toke. Not trying to persuade you but telling you your mind must be open and your judgments of your mother fall short in the eyes of God. That is why you probably feel so alone. Weed grows very naturally and vibrantly in the holy lands. Seeing as how Rastafarian belief’s roots lie in the heart of the home, Ethiopia. Haile Selassie I, a king of Ethiopia, is the 225th in an unbroken line of Ethiopian monarchs descended from the Biblical King Solomon and the Queen of Sheba. Eyes must be open. To hell with your school books.. Literally..

Oh yeah, on the pot topic. The only thing in the Bible that I found against pot was where it tells us to obey the laws of the country we’re in. OK. God initaly created us to eat fruits of the trees and he created the trees that grow buds of yummy THC containing gooey goodness. I have no spiritual qualms with pot and I would say that it does enhance my spirituality and relationship with my creator. PLUR

“First, I thank God for the anonimity from the internet”
On that topic you don’t have real anonimity on the internet. You are on a computer. Your computer has an address. Your address has your name on it. Unless your a clever little hacker…

Hi Elentari (I like your name, it’s pretty ^_) I just wanted to tell you I’m glad you’re alive and that you love God. I praise God for you and your faithfulness to Him and that you have a tender heart and are seeking comfort. You are very special. Your life is not meaningless at all, especially since you are a child of God! He loves you and has called you into His kingdom! He doesn’t do that for meaningless people.

I’m 19 and I was mentally stunted about sex too. I still am a little bit, but God is helping me understand this part of His creation. I don’t think sex too important in life, like you, and until about a month ago the very thought of it TERRIFIED me. Then God showed me, it was because I was selfish about myself and my body. I didn’t want anyone ever in my whole life, even if I loved them, touching me or wanting me to do that to them. But if we are to love one another as Christ loves His church, even giving up his body on the cross to die that we could be saved, we too have to give up our bodies to a person we love, and trust they will treat us lovingly. Trust is scary and very hard, but God is worthy of your trust. Place your hope in Him and the fact he does love you (because it’s true! Read 1 John, it’s all about God’s love and hope) and ask Him for help. He knows your struggles and is there to help you. Then, focus on His greatness and try to forget about your struggles by getting lost in His wonder. It’s amazing how much it helps to take the focus off ourselves.

Anyway, I hope that helps you, since I’ve been there too (I still am a little).

I will be praying for your mom so much! That is not good for her, and it shows she is trying to escape something else in her life. I hope she can find her peace in God.

I’ve never applied for a job but I’d imagine it’s very scary and hard to put yourself out there like that. I’m impressed at your desire for a job and hard work in trying to find one. I’ll be praying God blesses you with just the right one!

OH dear. I will pray for your sister-in-law’s brother too. That’s awful.

God bless you Elentari and I hope and pray you can feel His love for you! He loves you so much! Take care and I send you hugs _*~hugs**

Your sister in Christ,
Evie

Hey, absolute (is that a clever play on a certain brand of vodka?), what does PLUR mean? i notice that people use it on the site. Sorry to go off-topic…Elentari, you are at a time in your life that is extremely difficult. My heart goes out to you. Don’t be afraid to consult someone if you need to. Since you are christian, maybe a minister? I have heard that many christians get good counsel from seminarians and while as an atheist, I’m not advocating it, I can see where it could be beneficial. Perhaps a different type of counselor or a person that you trust wholeheartedly. I am sorry about your relative’s misfortune. Good luck to you!

Yes…Believe in yourself, Elentari…Find folk who care,rather like this lot…

I wish some of our friends would come back once in awhile to tell us how they are doing.

No one has said it so I will. Go get laid and smoke some herb and then see what your perspective is. Things will get better but it all is on you. All of it. So just change. That’s the bottom line of it. No amount of praying is really going to do anything, just your actions so make them positive. Get a terrible job and in the mean time look for one you like. Use protection and go get laid. It’s wonderful and like everything, good in moderation. Believe in yrself cos in the end that’s all you really have.

Ahhhh yes. The wise ramblings of EC. Wear protection and go get laid. And smoke some dope too so your so stoned that you don’t want to wear protection. That is a line of crap. Let some girl with herpes give you a BJ also and then tell me how happy you are when you have oozing blisters on your identity.

Fellowship with like minded Christians is best. Prayer and perseverance. Read A Pilgrims Progress and think about the burdens you will carry around in life, do the very best you can. Happiness will deceive you but God will bring you Joy.

Haha awh I love you too joew but you really shouldn’t exaggerate so much. Where did I say he should be a sex crazed junkie? Since when does trying something new become so demonized?

Wow, some interesting advice here…
While pot isn’t the worst thing in the world, after awhile it tends to make you care about important the things less. At least that was my experience.
So to the original poster, what do you like to do? Any sports? Hobbies? No matter what it is, join a group of people who like to do the same thing.
That will give you a group of people to share with and relate to.
I’m a runner. I belong to several running clubs. Through the Clubs I’ve found several good friends and many aquaintences. Show up at open events. If you are invited to a more private gathering, go. Be yourself. Soon you will be part of that group, and won’t feel so alone.
Places like this on the internet can be a help, but it is not a real substitute for “in person” relations.
And oh yeah, if it happens, great, but don’t go out looking to meet someone just for sex!

“Places like this on the internet can be a help, but it is not a real substitute for “in person” relations.”

key sentence :)